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Back to the future???

When I boarded the Silver Line bus (part of the MBTA transit system), I had an odd feeling about something -- perhaps it was the glowing and humming Flux Capacitor (image left) next to the fare box... When we took off, the time/date display (led pixelboard) came on and presented this:

NOT A DOCTORED PHOTO!

Sad thing is, Boston still looked the same in 2025... :-( At least it wasn't a smoking hole though!

On a completely separate note, I'm really starting to doubt myself as a person capable of ever being in a relationship. Don't get me wrong, I truly love people and very much enjoy having one very special person in my life, but my lack of dedication to that one person has raised serious doubts about our future. The sad part is, I've been in this situation before. If this relationship goes south, I swear I will never, ever be in one again.



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billybear_bstn
Jan. 18th, 2006 03:55 pm (UTC)
Find that bus again, it's a time machine!!!

LOL
cowfusior
Jan. 18th, 2006 06:08 pm (UTC)
Hey, at least you get to *have* a relationship. However, instead of never ever being in one again, maybe it's time to examine why there even is a lack of dedication and remedy that. We all have issues, hon--and you're starting to recognise some of yours. Believe it or not, congratulations are in order. Now do some work on them.

And before you start, yes, I know I'm a fine one to talk.
mc4bbs
Jan. 18th, 2006 06:46 pm (UTC)

Hey, at least you get to *have* a relationship. However, instead of never ever being in one again, maybe it's time to examine why there even is a lack of dedication and remedy that. We all have issues, hon--and you're starting to recognise some of yours. Believe it or not, congratulations are in order. Now do some work on them.

Thanks for commenting -- I wasn't even sure you were reading my blog! (Now you know the twisted inside of my head! -- Resist the urge to run away!)

I simply don't think there is a fix for me... Between my C.A.P.D. and my A.D.D. this tends to be the way it works for me again and again. I have read tons of self-help books, including my favourite A.D.D. & Romance (See: http://tinyurl.com/crg7d ) -- a book which I swear was written for and about me. Normally by the time I start getting the signals that something isn't right, irreparable damage has already taken place...

And before you start, yes, I know I'm a fine one to talk.

You might not know it, but I've always admired you -- even though you get in to a self-hating mood from time to time. You are a sexy, intelligent, fashionable woofy bear. I'm more shocked that someone hasn't swept you off your feet "long term" before now...

Dave is coming down tonight so we can "chat" -- I have a bad feeling that we're both going to agree that this relationship isn't working -- and as of our conversation from last night, even though I didn't see it that way, I'm really understanding his viewpoint.

It's really bugging me too, because I really love him. I see a perfect fit (with most things)... I hate to think he dosen't view it the same way.

Revised song of the day:
David Gray - White Ladder - Track 10 - "Say Hello Wave Goodbye"
cowfusior
Jan. 19th, 2006 03:26 pm (UTC)
You might not know it, but I've always admired you -- even though you get in to a self-hating mood from time to time. You are a sexy, intelligent, fashionable woofy bear. I'm more shocked that someone hasn't swept you off your feet "long term" before now...

Intelligent I'll give you. Bear, well, maybe. I don't ever remember being fashionable (well, except possibly during the Project Runway marathon). And the other stuff, well, I'm just not getting that vibe. And while I'm flattered by the admiration, I could better understand it were I successful at, well, anything.

There was a time when I thought I was a "catch." I have since learned otherwise. :) But then again, many people say I am hyperaware of my flaws, and not knowing any differently, they may be correct.
mc4bbs
Jan. 20th, 2006 04:34 pm (UTC)
Intelligent I'll give you. Bear, well, maybe. I don't ever remember being fashionable (well, except possibly during the Project Runway marathon). And the other stuff, well, I'm just not getting that vibe. And while I'm flattered by the admiration, I could better understand it were I successful at, well, anything.

There was a time when I thought I was a "catch." I have since learned otherwise. :) But then again, many people say I am hyperaware of my flaws, and not knowing any differently, they may be correct.


I'm glad I don't have a mirror like yours! You only see what's missing -- not what you have. :-( As for success, success is measured on so many scales.

This is how I see you: http://pics.livejournal.com/mc4bbs/pic/000f7fwc

Ain't he sexy? -- Yes, you are!!! If you don't like it, please don't take offense.

cowfusior
Jan. 20th, 2006 05:16 pm (UTC)
Aw, your rose-coloured glasses are so *cute*! For a dangerous dose of reality, check these out instead. (And no, I never posted the hideous pics that actually look like me.)

http://www.bigmusclebears.com/profile.phtml?uid=Dragon+Tiger

Frankly, if I looked like the guy whose pic you posted, I would complain a whole lot less. Well, a little less.

And my mirror is constructed of the reactions and comments from people whose company I'd like to keep. This is the downside of having a long memory.
mc4bbs
Jan. 20th, 2006 05:40 pm (UTC)

Aw, your rose-coloured glasses are so *cute*! For a dangerous dose of reality, check these out instead. (And no, I never posted the hideous pics that actually look like me.)

http://www.bigmusclebears.com/profile.phtml?uid=Dragon+Tiger

Frankly, if I looked like the guy whose pic you posted, I would complain a whole lot less. Well, a little less.

And my mirror is constructed of the reactions and comments from people whose company I'd like to keep. This is the downside of having a long memory.


Your BMB profile pix look a hell of a lot like the caricature of you I posted! I simply think YOU don't see yourself as many others do.

If you're getting shit from other people, since when did YOU ever allow it to influence your behaviour? You always stood proud and strong!

I should set up a poll to see if others think your BMB and my caricature look alike -- perhaps that would open your eyes as to not only how physicially cute/handsome you are, but intelligent and caring!

- Chaz

hummmmmmm.... Let's try that concept!

cowfusior
Jan. 24th, 2006 08:14 pm (UTC)
If you're getting shit from other people, since when did YOU ever allow it to influence your behaviour? You always stood proud and strong!


Well, having given it some thought, I think it's the difference between having been single for a few years since coming out and being single for over 20 years since coming out.
mc4bbs
Jan. 20th, 2006 05:57 pm (UTC)

Aw, your rose-coloured glasses are so *cute*! For a dangerous dose of reality, check these out instead. (And no, I never posted the hideous pics that actually look like me.)

He he he, you're going to be in for a surprise! I put the poll up!

http://mc4bbs.livejournal.com/108506.html

(Anonymous)
Jan. 19th, 2006 03:33 am (UTC)
Hello Mate, please don't be sad, noboddy knows his futur, just live the present, you are such a great person, you will be always in my life now that we are friend, and this is a real great staff, cheers my friend, Fred
freebear1
Jan. 20th, 2006 01:19 am (UTC)
Time for.....
I think it's time for a new journal entry. smooch.
mc4bbs
Jan. 20th, 2006 04:06 am (UTC)
Re: Time for.....
I think it's time for a new journal entry. smooch.

Your wish is my command, sweetie! :-)

Warning: Diabetics take your insulin! ;-)

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